Begin

The desire to produce an outpouring of my heart on canvas has been there for several years. 

Many obstacles prevent me from creating anything. 

It is all there, I just cannot do it. It is like my prayers. They are there desperate to come forth but I cannot utter the words. The prayers are on my heart...is that good enough? Do you hear me Lord. 

"I hear you dear, but you have to say them, I want to hear you praise me, thank me and ask me. I see your masterpiece but I want to see you create it. I want you to draw near to me in obedience and be a vessel for my words and my vision. I see your masterpiece but I want others to see it. I want others to hear the message of my grace."

When I think about the gift of creativity, I go quickly to the image of my grandmother, Mary Leah Lawrence. I think of the paintings she has created, the homes she has designed, her favorite color celedon and her love for the monochromatic. 

I think of her beauty inside and out and how through her devotion to the word of God she has touched so many and shared her gift. This is what I want to do.

So today I begin.